This is Anne with your Coaching On The Go.

I’ve been doing something that you might think is strange, but I’m going to share it with you because it’s working for me.

Years ago when I was going through some major healing and shifting of paradigms that were keeping me in a repetitive pattern.

I went to a Tony Robbins event.

Near the end of the event, everybody was supposed to have had a breakthrough and I didn’t have mine yet.

We were supposed to be prioritizing our rules and the things that we move away from and towards.

I was supposed to have a poster done with all of these things on it.

I felt so overwhelmed and my mind was so cluttered with things and trying to be perfect, to get everything right, that I couldn’t move on this poster.

On the morning of the last day, I show up barely started, and tell the woman who was in charge of our small group, that I didn’t finish my assignment.

Now, it costs a lot of money to go to this event.

The event was expensive.

The flight was expensive.

The lodging was expensive.

The food was expensive.

Everything was separate.

I paid for every aspect of that above the ticket for admittance to the training,

I was taking it very seriously.

I had left a job.

I didn’t have a current job.

I was using saved money to throw in on changes that felt like they were the right thing to do for me.

So when I approached this woman early in the morning, I was upset that I wasn’t done and ready to cry.

I met her early and I told her I wasn’t completed.

And as she talked with me, I realized what upset me about leaving my teaching job, wasn’t me.

It was that no one was going to be there (for the students).

As I talked with her and she asked me questions, I yelled,

“Who is going to protect these children?”.

“Who is going to protect the creative part of these children?”

She asked, “Are you talking about the children or are you talking about yourself?”.

I almost punched her, I felt so upset.

I said, “What?”.

“What do you mean?”

“What are you talking about?”

I let it sink in for a little while.

I realized that all those years teaching, one of the driving forces within me was that I was going to protect the parts of myself (also found in those children) that had been hurt so the students didn’t have to go through what I had experienced.

I didn’t even realize that was what I was doing.

We see this a lot in people who help other people.

We see they don’t realize what the driving force is behind what they are doing,

It is so that other people won’t experience what they did.

As I continued to talk with this coach, I realized that I had not only been advocating for the child creator in these students but that my child creator was still partially in lockdown.

Because I didn’t feel like my creator child was protected,

I was sheltering her aggressively and protecting her.

I realized I needed to bring her back to be with me.

I needed to protect her, and make her feel safe so she could collaborate with e.

As I continued to work with a psychotherapist I continued to,

I’m going to say “Romance my child! Create a play area for my child”.

I mentioned this the other day.

I’ve been sleeping in the bedroom that I created for her, for that part of myself that gets to be nurtured when I’m getting too analytical and uptight.

Right now, I’m opening to my next level.

I’m always doing that, but I am opening to my next big level.

I have a couple of things on the docket I’ve never done before that I’m focused on.

I’m working diligently to unlock the energy around my creative child and adult to let myself play.

There are a couple of things that happen when you do this.

You stop thinking about what you don’t have and you start to play.

You fix on your Vision and goals and step into the whimsy of the creative process.

If you can be great to your little child, you will unlock abundance, joy, possibility, creativity, and unlimitedness.

What can you do today or this week to create such a beautiful, safe environment that your most creative aspects come out to play?

If you want true momentum, there is play involved.

How can you call your child out to play in a big way in your life?

Have a beautiful day