This is Anne with your Coaching On The Go.

How often do you feel unsettled?

What I mean by that is when you have feelings of frustration, dissatisfaction, inner turmoil, like you are fighting within yourself, like something just isn not right?

How often do you feel like you are not in alignment with self?

Get a journal.

Go buy a journal or pull out a journal that you have never used before.

Label it, “My Authentic Self” or “My Journey to Me.” or pick your own title.

Use this to document what your feelings of misalignment are about.

I’ll give you an example of how to go through this process because it’s complex and revealing.

A few months ago, I felt internal misalignment.

I didn’t know why.

It was early in the morning.

I already felt like my day was getting hectic.

I didn’t know why I felt that way, but I stopped and took some time to ask (myself).

I breathed into it as I have you do and asked myself what I was feeling.

The answer I got back was, “You have created a hectic life.”

“You’ve got too many things going on.”

“You are operating in too many spaces.”

I got the understanding that going in and out of Spirit River, to my home, over to Mike’s house, having clothes in each space, having toiletries and things in each space, looking in on my mom and dad regularly (that being another part of the environment that I’m in regularly), that all that was hectic.

Then I got a feeling that I get to stop trying to prove myself.

I AM where I should be.

I AM worthy.

I AM valuable.

I AM good enough.

I AM.

Then I asked myself, “Is this life I’ve created in the current moment with my living situation and way I work what I really would be doing if I were authentic?”

I breathed into that and got a “NO”, that “I’ve created too hectic of a lifestyle for myself, and I am more into simplicity.”

That caused me to think about my home, that I’m in this home that I’m diligently fixing up, going to and from and it feels like I have too many places to go and tend to.

I asked what was “underneath” this home.

What I heard and felt was, “I keep this home up and keep fixing it because I loved the people who lived here, and they were really instrumental in my life and I feel like I can’t let the house go because I’ll be letting them go.”

There’s another property about 12 miles away that my mom’s family purchased when she was a little girl.

Her seven siblings and parents, chipped in altogether during tough times and bought this marshy property.

My mom is the last one in that group of people.

I’m close to that as well in proximity, but I don’t love being there anymore.

It’s another place.

I would rather be at Spirit River.

That’s where I feel really expansive.

I “asked” about these properties in this area where my family settled.

I got an answer from my relatives(in spirit), from my loved ones, that I don’t need to stay connected to these two properties because wherever I go, they(my loved ones) are with me.

Immediately after that, I began crying.

I cried for about a half hour, mourning.

Even though they told me that they are always with me, I began to process that, letting go of the physical space that is evidence that they were here and that I was here with them.

I am still mourning it a little bit.

What happened following that is I have been cleaning, organizing, straightening, and getting rid of things that I don’t need anymore.

A clearing is going on from that series of questions.